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(fic) Learning to Be Lonely - Not a rock, I'm just Ruth
All Me, no apologies
(fic) Learning to Be Lonely
Title: Learning to Be Lonely
Author: Ruth
Rating: R (subject matter)
Pairing: none
Warnings: masturbation and fantasy
Archive: please ask
Disclaimers: Gundam Wing and it's characters are owned by the corporation Sotsu/Sunrise, Bandai and others and are being used for entertainment purposes only. You honestly think anyone would pay me for this?
Word count: 305
Symbols: /=italics
Summary: A lonely night and a warm bath for a certain Vice-Foreign Minister

“Bah!” I threw the novel across the room. True-life romantic classics indeed. Men didn’t talk like that. /“Your eyes glow like stars on the depths of a new-moon night.”/

I leaned back against the edge of the tub, feeling the warm water rise and lap between my breasts.

So quiet. I suppose I could turn on the radio, but the quiet has a comfort to it as well. So many voices all around me, clamoring for attention. “Vice Foreign Minister!” “Minister Dorlain!” “Miss Relena!” “Hey, gorgeous!”

Well, at least the last was heartfelt and didn’t have claws behind the smile. I smile. I wonder what it would feel like; that long silken hair falling loose over my breasts. I let my hands follow where the hair would fall. So soft, so light, the touch would make my nipples stand up and wrinkle, they’re sensitive and the touch would tease them so. . .

The warmth beneath my belly had nothing to do with the scented water. I’d chosen lavender but I wondered about other scents; an exotic spicy musk that always seemed to linger even if the wearer was in a business suit, a warm up outfit or in uniform. I could almost smell it.

My hands reached down to caress myself. Long fingers, rough from a harsh life; they would pull at the sensitive skin, not enough to hurt. No. Those hands were too skilled to hurt. The roughness would heighten the sensations. . .

The hands that know me best tease slowly, slowly until I cannot stand it any longer. I shudder, open, alive. So very, very real within my skin . . .

Alone. I open my eyes and sigh. The water is getting cold.

I stand up, wrap myself in a soft robe and drain the tub. I pick up the ridiculous novel and throw it into the trash before I head to bed.



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misanagi From: misanagi Date: December 15th, 2005 05:02 am (UTC) (Link)
That's so very sad, and still real. I really liked it. It's very subtle and yet the last line fills it with power. I'm not sure if I'm making any sense, but I liked this a lot.
thistlerose From: thistlerose Date: December 15th, 2005 05:18 am (UTC) (Link)
Poor Relena. It's so sad that she's so lonely.
darthanne From: darthanne Date: December 15th, 2005 05:43 am (UTC) (Link)
I love this.

It's very sad and yearning. I have ideas as to the person is she's thinking about too.

*Hugs Relena*
sharona1x2 From: sharona1x2 Date: December 15th, 2005 08:30 am (UTC) (Link)
Very nicely written. I have empathy for Relena in this story.
lil_1337 From: lil_1337 Date: December 15th, 2005 04:35 pm (UTC) (Link)
*hugs Relena* that was very eloquent and painful. So much emotion in so few words.

*hugs you too* Cause I want to.
wickedchild_md From: wickedchild_md Date: December 15th, 2005 05:24 pm (UTC) (Link)
GW would have been a lot more fun (not that it wasn't in the first place) if someone were paid to write this into the series.

Poor Relena, only having her imagination and herself to get her through the night. Realistically it would be difficult for her to get involved in a relationship of any kind, but the poor girl shouldn't have to sacrifice that much. T__T

For being so short, it is rather powerful. Thanks for posting it and the link. ~_^ I'm thinking this deserves at least an honorable mention for SINNER but that's only because I may have sealed my own fate.
just_ruth From: just_ruth Date: December 15th, 2005 11:56 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm glad you like it and that's quite all right, I'm not sure I could write thirty lemons in thirty days either. :)
kedriaa From: kedriaa Date: December 15th, 2005 06:35 pm (UTC) (Link)
Aww poor Relena :(

The piece was very heartfelt and poignant. Love your short drabbles. ^_^ They are always so meaningful, always hits the nail on the head.
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