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What a Wonderful World - Just Ruth
For the Orphan Plot Bunny Challenge on spnwriterlounge

Title: What a Wonderful World
Author: Just Ruth
Disclaimer: Supernatural is the property of Eric Kripe and the CW. Characters/Situations are being borrowed for entertainment purposes only. You think anyone would pay me for this?
Rating: G
Genre: Gen
Word Count: 949
Characters/Pairings: Castiel, Jimmy Novak, Dean, Amelia Novak, Claire Novak, Original Character
Warnings: None
Summary: "What is so worth saving? I see nothing but pain here."
Special thanks to the editors of the Supernatural Wiki
*******

CASTIEL
What would you have me do?

DEAN
Get me to Sam. We can stop this before it's too late.

CASTIEL
I do that, we will all be hunted. We'll all be killed.

DEAN
If there is anything worth dying for... this is it.
You spineless... soulless son of a bitch. What do you care about dying? You're already dead. We're done.

CASTIEL
(turning back)
Dean --

DEAN
We're done!

******

Castiel stood in front of the apartment building, alone in the cone of light made by the street lamp. After Dean had shouted at him, he turned to the soul of his vessel for answers. Jimmy Novak was insistent on coming to this place. He should not be here; it was forbidden. Yet, he knew what room to go to. He stood, watching the child sleep and felt a part of him soothe. Her mother came to the doorway and looked in on Claire. Amelia smiled, but her eyes were so very weary. She did not see him. He made certain of that.

He could not stop the tears. His vessel suffered and he could do nothing.

Why? He asked.

Better me than her, was the answer. Jimmy spoke to him of a love that tried to spare his family pain. To see Claire and Amelia alive, healthy, happy was all Jimmy Novak had asked of his life.

And Castiel tried to understand.

Amelia returned to the living room and turned on the television. There was a report on volunteers building a wall of sandbags to supplement their crumbling levee against the rising river. Curious, Castiel stepped through time and space to stand next to an older man glimpsed briefly on the screen.

"Why are you doing this?" Castiel asked him.

The older man glowered at him as the rain dripped down the brim of his hat. "Let me tell ya a story, son," he snapped as he kept filling bags and passing them on to others. "Once there was a man who lived by a river who always said "the Lord will provide." One day as it was raining, some people came and pounded on his door and said "come help us sandbag the levee, for the river will flood."

"He says, "no, the Lord will provide."

"Later some folks in a truck came by and said "The river's flooding! You need to come with us."

"He says, "no, the Lord will provide."

"Well, the river floods and there he is, stuck in his house. Some folks in a boat come by and say "get in! Get in!"

"He says, "no, the Lord will provide."

"The river rises and there he is on his roof. A helicopter comes by and they lower a rope to him. "Grab on!" they shout.

"He says, "no, the Lord will provide."

"Well, his house is swept away and he drowns. He ends up before his Maker and he says "Why did you let that happen?"

"God says "I sent the folks to sandbag the levee, a truck, a boat and a helicopter – what more did you want?"

"So, why am I here, son? Because I'm the one the Lord did provide and I'm going to do some saving of my fellow men!"

Castiel stepped back – and acknowledged the old man's warrior spirit that found strength in helping others. Much like Dean.

******

He stood in one of Dean's memories. The crisp grey of dawn grew lighter and lighter until the sun lifted above the seeming endless horizon of the prairie and the open road to joyous song birds caroling their praises of the new day.

"Beautiful, isn't it?" asked the man beside him.

Castiel looked into the face of John Winchester – lines of care marring his handsome visage, his hands tucked into the pockets of the leather jacket Dean would cherish.

"The dawn keeps coming up, son," he said in Dean's memory. "Sometimes that's the only thing you can look forward to."

And Castiel saw the hope of driving back the darkness that was one of the things that drove this man and drove his sons as well.

*******
He stood by the mighty falls; the air was full of mist and rainbows and laughter as young couples kissed in the many chapels that surrounded the falls on both sides of what humanity called an international border. He felt the love that joins lives in the hope of happiness.

He began to understand.

A child laughed and he watched them playing – feeling in their parents love and hope for a bright future. In the children there was an innocence that found joy in the simplest thing and he remembered a teacher long ago saying "theirs is the Kingdom of Heaven."

And Castiel saw that it was Good – Very Good and worthy of protection.

He returned to the Green Room and pressed Dean Winchester to the wall. He took the knife and drew it across his arm – painting the sigil of banishing with his own blood and blasting Zechariah from the room.

He told Dean the truth and took him to the prophet Chuck. He sent Dean to Ilchester. He stood with Chuck – and he hoped.

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Comments
erinrua From: erinrua Date: June 4th, 2009 04:10 am (UTC) (Link)
This is beautiful. This is a candle in the dark for fandom and for Castiel. I love your imagery, I love Castiel's journey through thought and time, and I love his lessons along the way.

And the ending? Perfect. Ya done good, lady. Saving to mems. *HUGS!*
just_ruth From: just_ruth Date: June 5th, 2009 02:28 am (UTC) (Link)
Thanks for reading. The abandoned bunny was Castiel learning from Dean what was worth saving. :) It seems I have a little bit of hope still left in me for this show. . .
snakewhissperer From: snakewhissperer Date: June 4th, 2009 04:51 pm (UTC) (Link)
I've bookmarked this to read later..when i'm caught up. 2x04 and counting.
just_ruth From: just_ruth Date: June 5th, 2009 02:29 am (UTC) (Link)
I only hope you aren't discouraged by it.
arliss From: arliss Date: June 7th, 2009 03:02 pm (UTC) (Link)
This is lovely. What a wonderful way for Castiel to learn about the human spirit.
just_ruth From: just_ruth Date: June 7th, 2009 08:48 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thank you - the finale left me so very discouraged I wasn't sure I wanted to keep going, but I guess I still have a little hope for the show.
jayfray18 From: jayfray18 Date: June 7th, 2009 03:53 pm (UTC) (Link)
I really shouldn't read these, I'm only on 4:20 over here, but this is soo good. Fits the prompt beautifully.
just_ruth From: just_ruth Date: June 7th, 2009 08:46 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thank you! I'm glad you liked it.
From: kira_bouviea Date: June 7th, 2009 08:22 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh. My. God.

It's gorgeous!

I'm so glad that you took my prompt. You took a 'very' rough prompt and you turned out this masterpiece.

Yes! *pumps fist*

Okay, so you obviously win at life. Here have the internet. *hands over internet on a silver platter*
just_ruth From: just_ruth Date: June 7th, 2009 08:45 pm (UTC) (Link)
*laughs* *hugs* I'm glad you enjoyed it! I confess that the finale, especially the line "God has left the building" left me angry, sad and not inclined to go on to a fifth season - but this prompt and writing this story - it looks like I still hold out a little hope for the series.
thehighwaywoman From: thehighwaywoman Date: June 13th, 2009 06:04 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh, Ruth. This is beautiful. You've made me tear up. I can truly see this happening, and I love how you tell it in snapshot style, with vivid images and small moments made powerful and new seen through Castiel's eyes.
just_ruth From: just_ruth Date: June 14th, 2009 06:02 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thank you. The finale left me so discouraged - I'd even said in couple places "If God has left the building, Ruth has left the show."

The prompt was "Dean shows Castile what is worth saving" and writing this showed me I still have some hope.

So, as I said to you, Castile saved me from Kripke.
faunaana From: faunaana Date: June 16th, 2009 12:16 am (UTC) (Link)
Just to let you know, we've recced this in this week's crack_impala found here. =D
just_ruth From: just_ruth Date: June 16th, 2009 01:42 am (UTC) (Link)
Thank you!
redrikki From: redrikki Date: June 16th, 2009 08:17 pm (UTC) (Link)
I loved the old man's story. I mean, this whole fic was filled with wonderful moments, but damn, that little story was great.
just_ruth From: just_ruth Date: June 16th, 2009 10:02 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thank you! "The Lord will provide" is an old joke that I've heard many times in different versions that no one I know remembers where they first heard it. It's a nice little cautionary fable that seemed to fit. :)
counteragent From: counteragent Date: June 17th, 2009 11:57 am (UTC) (Link)
lovely!
just_ruth From: just_ruth Date: June 18th, 2009 12:43 am (UTC) (Link)
Thank you! I'm glad you liked it.
phorenice From: phorenice Date: June 22nd, 2009 03:24 pm (UTC) (Link)
Beautiful fic, beautiful songs - thank you!
I especially loved the last sentence.
just_ruth From: just_ruth Date: June 22nd, 2009 11:17 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thank you! In the end, faith and hope go hand and hand
azdaja_dafema From: azdaja_dafema Date: June 24th, 2009 03:35 pm (UTC) (Link)
Wonderful imagery. I love your "lord will provide" section, and the quiet of the John scene.
just_ruth From: just_ruth Date: June 28th, 2009 05:17 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thank you, I'm glad you liked it.
maychorian From: maychorian Date: July 2nd, 2009 01:20 pm (UTC) (Link)
This is beautiful. I loved the images and the stories you tell, and I love Castiel taking this little journey of discovery and understanding. Just a gorgeous fic, and the songs are wonderful. I'm so glad you found "Calling Out Your Name" inspiring. I did, too.
just_ruth From: just_ruth Date: July 3rd, 2009 01:06 am (UTC) (Link)
Thank you. I found other songs by Rich Mullins inspirational - which surprises me because the local branch of Campus Crusade for Christ back in '78 played "Our God is an Awesome God" ad nauseum and it took "Entertaining Angels" before I even listened to Christian and Gospel Music again. I downloaded "Brother's Keeper" because it speaks to me of Sam and Dean and the family business.

And I recently bought "Canticle of the Prairie" Mullin's retelling of the life of Saint Francis as an American Western.

I was so discouraged by the finale, but writing this shows that maybe I still have a scrap or two of hope left.
ficwriter1966 From: ficwriter1966 Date: August 7th, 2009 09:47 pm (UTC) (Link)
Ahhhhh. What a wonderful journey for Castiel to take - discovering love and devotion and selflessness. All worthy of protection. Very nicely told. :)
just_ruth From: just_ruth Date: August 9th, 2009 09:41 pm (UTC) (Link)
Exactly. Thank you, I'm glad you liked it.
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