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(fic)Don't Turn Around - Not a rock, I'm just Ruth
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(fic)Don't Turn Around
I was puttering around in some old folders and found this

Disclaimers: Gundam Wing and it's characters are owned by the corporation Sotsu/Sunrise, Bandai and others and are being used for entertainment purposes only. You honestly think anyone would pay me for this? "Don't Turn Around" by Ace of Base
Title: Don't Turn Around
Author: Ruth
Series: Gundam Wing
Rating: G
Pairing: 1 + R
Warnings: none
Archive: Gundanium Line, others please ask
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Summary: Sometimes, the best way to love someone is to let them go.
(Songfic Challenge from 2000 - GWFML)
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He had not been the first man wounded in the Barton Rebellion, but he was the first to leave the medical facility. It was easier to let him go than to try and keep him. The dark-haired teen had his arms crossed and a ferocious scowl on his face, but the intern didn't seem impressed. They rolled him in the wheelchair to the hospital doors. His olive jacket didn't seem adequate for the snowy weather of early February in Belgium.

She was waiting outside. The black limo was in the parking lot. The deep blue coat with fake fur trim made her blonde coloring even paler than usual.

"Relena," he said gravely.

"Heero," she nodded quietly. They began to walk across the frosted grounds.

"I'm glad you're well," she said into the silence.

"You didn't have to come."

"I know."

They stopped and looked at each other a moment; the warrior who had won peace and the warrior who would now administer that peace.

"I was going to ask you to come with me," she looked away, "but I can't. You have to find your own place in this world, Heero. It may not be with me. You have to learn how to live in peace."

He looked startled. "Relena."

"I just want you to remember that if you need a friend. I'll be there." She turned and walked towards the parking lot. She glanced over her shoulder. He was walking away.

//I will survive...without you
Don't tell me that you want to leave
If you want to leave, I won't beg you to stay
And if you gotta go, darling, maybe its better that way
I'm gonna be strong, I'm gonna do fine, don't worry about this heart of mine
Walk out that door, see if I care, go on and go, but

Don't Turn Around, cuz you're gonna see my heart breaking
Don' t turn around, I don't want you seeing me cry - just walk away,
It's tearing me apart that you're leaving,
I'm letting you go, but I won't let you know.
I won't let you know.
I won't miss your arms around me,
holding me tight... holding me tight.
And if you ever think about me,
just know that I'll be alright...I'll be all right.
I'm gonna be strong, I'm gonna do fine,
don't worry about this heart of mine,
I will survive I'll make it through,
I'll even learn to live without you. //

She stood straight and tall at the podium. The ministers from the Earth Council and the Colonies all were watching her as she gave the final arguments for the Mars Terraforming project. It was a good strong summation; she'd had help. Preventer Dragon had been a scholar before he had been a Gundam pilot. He was as adept at verbal sparring as he was at piloting a mobile suit or heading an investigation.

Heero was there. She was so tempted to look up behind the spotlight, up in one of the balconies. She could feel him there, watching her. Maybe he didn't have a gun this time.

She finished her speech. After a moment, her grandfather, Duke Weridge stood up and began to applaud, followed by the delegate from L 4, Abdul ibn Rashid grinned at her over his sunglasses. They were all on their feet, applauding, cheering. She'd won.

She felt him leave.

//I wish I could scream out loud that I love you,
I wish I could say to you don't go --
As he walks away he feels the pain getting strong,
people in your life, they don't know what's going on
Too proud to turn around, he's gone... //

Someday he might be back, someday.

She would just have to wait.


//Don't Turn Around, cuz you're gonna see my heart breaking
Don' t turn around, I don't want you seeing me cry - just walk away,
its tearing me apart that you're leaving,
I'm letting you go, but I won't let you know.
I won't let you know.
I won't miss your arms around me,
holding me tight... holding me tight.
And if you ever think about me,
just know that I'll be alright...I'll be all right.
I'm gonna be strong, I'm gonna do fine,
don't worry about this heart of mine,
I will survive I'll make it through,
I'll even learn to live without you. //

-fin-

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darthanne From: darthanne Date: October 26th, 2004 05:21 pm (UTC) (Link)
Just read this on the MLs. I really like it. Enjoyed the interaction between Relena and Heero - he does need to find his own place in the world; she's quite right on that. I also liked the touch of Wufei helping her with the speech and Heero watching from the shadows.

I've always liked your Relena :)
just_ruth From: just_ruth Date: October 26th, 2004 06:15 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thanks, I've always wondered if I should do a sequel to this. . .
misanagi From: misanagi Date: October 26th, 2004 09:02 pm (UTC) (Link)
*loves the fic*

Very good, and I loved the way you wrote Relena here. And yes, please do a sequel!
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